My life in color has sure proven “more colorful” indeed. To say that last week was a bad week would be an extreme understatement. Last week was horrid, it was the week from hell and I’m glad it’s finally over…
In a wisp of a second, just like THAT. Life can turn on a dime.
There I am sitting high on top of a mountain, my head in the clouds. I am looking to the sky and shouting; “Life is great!” I am invincible. I am full of magic and I can do anything! The day is long and warm and full of sun. Its seems it never will end and then…. it does.
The harsh wind of reality blows in, it’s freezing cold. It raps at my door and knocks it down. BAM! Once, twice, three times. It cuts, each as deep as the next and I’m left wondering “What the hell was That?”
It seems to be raining on my parade at the moment and when it rains it pours. One piece of bad news after another, Like tsunamis hitting my beaches. I am torn and battered. My coastline has taken quite a beating. I will survive but I cannot help but wonder “What’s next?”
I pride myself in my ability to stay calm and rational in a crisis. I like to think of myself as the voice of reason in a sea of emotional wrecks. I still am calm, even seemingly emotionless about my sudden change of fortune but on the inside I suffer. I am human after all.
Over this “Week from Hell” I have acquired another funny little quirk to add to my list of funny little quirks. I literally have a pain in my neck and its all in my head. Oh yes. apparently I am one of “those people” now. I do have to say in my defense, without going into any detail, that the stuff I am dealing with now would scare the bejesus out of the toughest of us.
I know that nothing lasts forever, and that it’s always darkest before the dawn and all that. I will persevere because I believe I will. That is not the question nor was it when this odyssey began. The question in my mind isn’t “Why?’ I know there is no answer to that question. My question is “What.”
What have I learned from all this? What could someone possibly learn from these unfortunate twists and turns of fate? I grappled with this for days. I paced. I drank lots of coffee and I thought. My ego would like to tell you the brilliance of my mind came up with the answer, but the honesty of my heart cannot tell a lie. For it was not me.
There is someone I know, we are partners in woe but his woe is worse than mine. He has picked this time to undergo the greatest challenge anyone can undergo; The challenge to conquer himself. I am very much impressed and inspired by this act and more importantly by this person.
I think this quote really fits;
“Times of Trouble best discover the true worth of a man.”
**Thomas à Kempis**
“When we are strong, we are always much greater than the things that happen to us.” **Thomas Merton**
I now know the true meaning of these true ideas because of this inspiring person. I couldn’t be more proud of anyone for anything.
You are my hero, M.M. and this I shout to the world!
KEEP THE FAITH